Flash Fiction #19

[lokis_mayhem]

Title: Flash Fiction #19
Fandom: The Walking Dead
Word Count: 756
Characters: Shane Walsh, Lori Grimes, Rick Grimes
Warnings: None
Author’s Note/Disclaimer: I don’t own anything associated with The Walking Dead – I just like to take the characters out to play from time to time. This is unbeta’d and unedited – all errors are my own. If you see anything that needs correction, please let me know! Concrit is always welcome!

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Shane waited until Rick and Glenn left on a supply run before he made his move. He watched Lori as she sent Carl off to Carol and Sophia’s tent, mentally rehearsing what he wanted to say. He still felt horrible for what had happened at the CDC. He’d never intended to get that rough with her; he never meant to hurt her or scare her. He just needed her to understand his feelings, to listen to what he had to say.

He walked slowly toward her tent, making some noise so she’d know he was approaching. “Lori? Can I please talk to you for a minute?” He kept his voice soft, nonthreatening. Lori’s back immediately stiffened and, as she turned to look at him, Shane was struck by how cold her eyes were.

“Stop right there, Shane. If you come any closer, I swear to God I’ll beat you to death with this pan.” She clutched the pan tightly with both hands, her knuckles almost white from the pressure.

“Hey, I’m not going to touch you, I swear it. I just want to talk to you, to apologize.” He raised his hands to show he meant no harm and sat down on a log a few feet away. “Please, Lori, I’m so sorry that I hurt you. I never wanted that. I never wanted to hurt you. I only want to love you, to remind you that you love me.”

“Love?” she spat, her eyes flashing with anger. “How dare you say that word to me? Shane, you attacked me!” She whirled on her heel and began to walk away. Shane stood and grabbed her arm, spinning her back around to face him.

“Lori, I’m trying to tell you I’m sorry. Please, just… just listen to me, ok? Lori, I know you love me. You would never have been with me if you didn’t. You told me that you were going to leave Rick but then he got shot. I thought that… that me, you, Carl, we could be a family. And now Rick’s back and all of a sudden you’re playing the dutiful wife, thrilled to death that you have a second chance? Lori, that makes no sense. How could you do this to me, to us?” Shane’s voice grew progressively rougher, more emotional. Tears glistened in his eyes as he searched her face for some sign that she understood, that she felt the same. “Lori, I love you. Why can’t you love me back?”

Lori wrenched her arm from Shane’s grasp, venom in her words as she said, “I have never loved you. Get that through your head now, Shane. What happened between us was a mistake. You told me my husband was dead. You lied to me. Everything that happened between us after that was a lie. Forget it and get out of my life. Stay away from me, stay away from my son, and stay far away from my husband or so help me God, I will tell him what you did. You’re nothing to me, Shane. Nothing.”

Lori stalked off to Carol’s tent, tears streaming down her face. Shane abruptly sat on the ground, fisting his hands in his hair as her words echoed through his mind. He looked up as Rick and Glenn returned to camp, their footsteps drowning out the words that had broken his heart.

“Shane, you all right, brother?” Rick said as he knelt by Shane, putting his hand on Shane’s shoulder. “You look upset. What’s happened?”

Shane shook Rick’s hand off, attempting to smile. “Nah, man, I’m ok. Just, you know, wishing things had turned out differently.”

Rick nodded and stood up, offering his hand to Shane to help him up. “Yeah, I know. I’d hoped that the CDC would be our salvation. And now here we are, back in the woods.” He sighed as he looked around the camp. “We’ll get through this, Shane. We just have to keep going, keep on fighting, keep the hope alive.”

Shane nodded, his face set in grim determination. “Keep the hope alive, damn right. Here, I’ll help you with this stuff.”

As Shane and Rick walked back to the camp, Shane determinedly kept his eyes off of Lori. For the rest of the evening, he kept mostly to himself, volunteering for an extra watch shift to give himself more time to think.

By the time the sun came up, he had figured out where things had gone wrong. He knew what he had to do to fix it.

Comments

[corellian-sugar.livejournal.com]

Well, this sounds decidedly ominous. Please tell me this is a two-parter!

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure yet - it's probably a one-shot. I really like Shane & don't want him dead yet. But I'll be damned if I'll let him pull something on Rick. We'll see how it turns out though ;o)

[luveskane.livejournal.com]

Lori is so harsh with Shane. For once I think I side with her though. What he did was very wrong, I can forgive the saying Rick was dead because I truly believe he thought that, but the attacking her part was wrong on so many levels and being drunk is no excuse.

That last part though, oh no what is going through Shanes mind?? I think I know and its not good lol.

Wonderful writing again babe <3

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

yeah, she was harsh with him and I hate it for him. I honestly don't think he meant to be so rough or go so far with it. He was desperate. I'm not really trying to make excuses for what he did but... yeah, ok maybe I am. I just kinda understood how he was feeling there. Not sure what that says about me, to be honest.

Oh no, it's not good at all. He's getting more and more desperate. I don't have plans to continue it right now. I really do like Shane & I don't want him dead. I can't let him make a move on Rick though.

Oooh, a way out just hit me but damn if that doesn't take it WAY AU at this point in the "season". Hmm....

thank you babe! <3

[luveskane.livejournal.com]

He was desperate and frustrated and emotionally unstable that is for sure. She probably could have been a little less harsh about him wanting to talk too. Still cant forgive him for that part easily though. I havent re-watched that part since it aired though so I might be remembering things a bit off.

I dont blame you there, that would be a hard one to continue with. Its a no win situation.

Or maybe not LOL.. AU isnt necessarily a bad thing doll ;)

*huggles*

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

Exactly - he's getting more and more unstable as time goes by. I feel for him, I really do. I doubt you're remembering it off - a lot of people are done with Shane for what he did to her in that scene. I just can't seem to explain why I'm not done with him - it makes no sense really.

LOL, I know right? AU can be great fun - there's a lot less restrictions when you take it AU. Maybe I'll deal with this in my Rick/Andrea fic. That could be a good place cause it's already AU at this point.

*smooshes*

[luveskane.livejournal.com]

I feel for him too. He is in a terrible position, not only with the zombies but the whole Rick situation that is so multi-layered it would drive anyone nuts!! Im not done with him, considering at first I totally hated him, I think he has come up in my mind a bit since then lmao. Still not happy with that part but not writing him off just yet. I wonder how long they will keep him before they wander back towards hte comic storylines?

Ohhh yes Rick?Andrea fic would be a great one for AU :D

♥

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

He really is - he's so lonely, not because he's away from the people he loves most but because he's so close to them and he can't have them.

Personally, I really hope they don't wander back that direction - I'd hate to lose Jon on the show. I'll mourn him and i'm not ready for that just yet, you know? Besides, and this is completely shallow, I really like looking at him *g*

[luveskane.livejournal.com]

I think you just hit it on the head there. He is too close, can look but not touch basically.

Hopefully they will hold off for awhile, I know they really like Jon as Shane and are enjoying exploring his character more then he was explored in the comic. LOl shallow is good sometimes though ;-)

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

Exactly! That has got to be torture for him!

I sure hope so! I know he does too - I heard one interview where he was like "Whew, I still have a job!" XD I think there's a lot of potential left in him that we haven't explored yet.

*grin* That's a damn good thing cause I'm shallow a lot of the time, lol!

Re: <----I had to use this icon again! LOL!

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

*giggles* STILL love that icon! :D

Thank you so much! Oh yeah, love will kick you in the ass harder than anything else in this world!
They are both guilty, of various things. I still love Shane though *g*
Thank you!!

[despairsrai.livejournal.com]

BB just letting you know I'm 2 episodes away from finishing the first season. OMG we have to talk about everything when I'm done. I have so many questions. lol

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

OMG yay!!! I can't wait to talk about this with you!! :D

I tell you what - if you want, my email is rhiannon12667@gmail.com. You can email me and we can discuss anything and everything you want without having to worry about spoiling/comments getting wonky. :D

*bounces* I'm so excited!! TWD is my favorite subject :D

[despairsrai.livejournal.com]

YAY! I saved your email bb and once I finish we can finally chat. I am a little sad its coming to an end and season two is so far away! :(

btw I need some TWD icons asap! Should I check out your community?

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

Woo hoo! I'm looking forward to it!! I know, I felt the same way! I've rewatched the episodes so much I can almost quote it word for word *g*

Yes, ma'am you most definitely should! My comm is eat up with TWD icons - just check the walking dead tag and take all that you want :D

[kiora1.livejournal.com]

For pulling something out after a bad day you did a great job :0 I do feel as though you left me on the verge of a cliff waiting to see what he's planning. Could get very interesting (imagine terrible french accent)

Yeah, I haven't given up on Shane yet either, I think he can still be redeemed so long as he doesn't continue a downward spiral.

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

Thank you chica! LOL, you're not the only one who feels that way. Knowing Shane, he could be planning anything *g* At this point, if I continue it, it's going AU cause I'm not ready for Shane's death.

I hope he can be redeemed - I don't want to see him go :(

[kiora1.livejournal.com]

not all confrontaions lead to violence or certian death

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

In the comic!verse, it does. :( We'll see what happens though, huh? I do have an idea on how to continue it if I decide to that don't involve certain death or violence. Well, maybe some violence. I don't know... I have to think about it.

[kiora1.livejournal.com]

you do that :P I eagerly await your findings.

perhaps a epiphany will hit you in the middle of the night, startling you to sit straight up screaming 'UREKA'

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

Hahaha! Let's just hope i have the presence of mind to find a notebook and write it all down *g*

[kiora1.livejournal.com]

Prepare, prepare, pepare!!!
What kind of boyscout are you anyway?

[museofmyself.livejournal.com]

I haven't been able to follow this (not enough computer time), but I just wanted to say what a talented writer you are, Rhi. Keep up the fabulous work, girl! :)

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much hon! *huggles* I appreciate you reading them when you can! <3