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Thanks first to several people cause I'm feeling kinda mushy right now:

♥ Thank you to [livejournal.com profile] lovesswingdance for mentioning the pairing in a fandom friendzy and reminding me of the one scene that started it all.
♥ Thank you to [livejournal.com profile] kaitlia777 for the lovely icon that sparked the fic idea and title.
♥ Thank you to [livejournal.com profile] fadeintohim for being a fantabulous beta and cheerleader for me!
♥ Thank you to my lovely TWD fandom friends from the [livejournal.com profile] capturing_norm community  for putting up with my nonsense and always cheering me on in my creative endeavors! I'll see you all tomorrow night for the EPIC WATCH PARTY!!

Title: Taking the Safety Off
Pairing: Rick/Andrea
Spoilers: If you've seen through episode 1x05 plus the preview for 1x06, you're good.
Genre: Gen, comfort.
Word Count: 1013

Andrea lay curled up on a sofa in the lounge of the CDC, weeping softly and trying to drift off to sleep. She was so exhausted – she hadn't slept more than a half-hour at a time in the last four days, refusing to let anyone else take her turn at standing guard,  but unable to sleep when her turn was over. She kept seeing Amy’s face in her dreams. Amy smiling and laughing as they drove across the country, blissfully unaware that the world was ending around them. Amy beaming and doing a little dance, so proud to bring a big bunch of fish back to the group at the quarry. Amy screaming and bleeding as the walker tore into her flesh, horror on her face and fear in her eyes. Amy as a walker, breathing her last breath, as she, Andrea, put a bullet in her head. The last one was the worst, the hardest to get rid of. Andrea really wished that Jenner hadn't shown them that video of what happens to a person when they die and become a walker. The thought of Amy going through that…
Giving in to her overwhelming emotions, Andrea turned her face into the pillow and sobbed as though her heart were breaking.
 
Rick stood in the doorway, watching Andrea cry, wondering if she would let him comfort her. As wrong as it may be, she'd been on his mind a lot lately. Hell, she'd been on his mind since the first moment they met. It was lucky for him she hadn't known how to turn the safety off on her pistol – there was murder in her eyes when she'd looked at him and told him that he'd killed them all with his stupidity. He smiled at the memory. She'd had so much spunk; it hurt his heart to see her so broken now. He wished she'd let him take care of putting Amy out of her misery. She might hate him for it, but he would prefer that to watching her suffer the guilt she surely felt now. 

 He'd started to go after her when she ran from the control room earlier but he had been afraid of how it might look to the others. He'd always been an honest man, a man who lived his life in black and white. Right was right, wrong was wrong – no shades of gray. And here he was, a married man thinking about another woman and how much he'd like to hold her.  A loud sob jerked Rick’s wandering thoughts back to the present and he decided that right or wrong be damned, it was time to take the safety off.

“Andrea?” Rick spoke softly, as he walked toward her. He hadn't intended to startle her but, at the sound of his voice, Andrea jumped and was half-off of the sofa before Rick could reach her. Seeing him, she frantically started grabbing her boots and weapons and said, “Is it my turn to stand watch? Let me just get my stuff-“

“Andrea, stop! Nothing’s happened. We're not under attack. We're safe here. Daryl and Shane are standing guard and Jenner’s watching the monitors. Glenn and Dale are taking the second watch and then Daryl and Glenn will take the third watch. You're off duty tonight.  I just wanted to check on you, make sure you were ok.”  Rick gently eased Andrea back toward the sofa until she had no choice but to sit back down, her grip on her boots and weapons slowly easing off.

“I'm fine, Rick. I don't need anyone to baby sit me.”

“Andrea, you're a strong woman, I get that. But I also know that you're hurting, you're pissed off and you're not sleeping. I just came to sit with you, watch over you so you could maybe feel safe and get some sleep for a change. I won't let anything hurt you, you know that. You can let your guard down. Please, just let me do this? Let me fight your demons for you tonight and you can fight with me tomorrow, ok?”

Rick settled himself back against the cushions, wrapping his arms around Andrea, pulling her back against his chest. She wanted to struggle, but she couldn't deny that Rick’s warmth and strength felt really good to her. She needed that, even though she hated to admit it.

“What about your wife? Shouldn't you be with Lori and Carl?”

Rick sighed, replying softly “Carl has been asleep for hours; he’s fine. And I really don't want to talk about Lori right now, ok? Just relax, close your eyes, and get some rest.”

Andrea hated to admit it, even to herself, but a tiny part of her felt a thrill that Rick was here, with her, and not with his better half. Andrea had always tried to keep her nose out of other people’s business, but she saw more back at camp than anyone might have suspected. She knew what had been going on between Shane and Lori, and she knew that it would break Rick’s heart if he ever found out. She couldn't bear to be the one to tell him, even if it might clear the way for her to be with Rick.

She settled herself more comfortably against Rick’s chest and felt his arms tighten just a bit, for a quick moment. She glanced up at him breaking the uncomfortable silence, “Has anyone ever told you that you're a bit of a pain in the ass?”

Rick laughed, really laughed, for the first time in what felt like months. “Oddly enough, Daryl told me that not twenty minutes ago.”

Andrea laughed with Rick, feeling herself begin to relax, letting some of the regret and tension slide away. Patting his arm, she whispered, “Thank you.”

Rick tightened his arms in a brief hug pressing his lips to the top of her head, holding her until he felt her breathing change as she slipped into what he hoped would be a dreamless sleep. Only then would he allow himself to rest.

I hope you enjoy it! ♥

Date: 2010-12-04 10:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] luveskane.livejournal.com
Oh sweetie, that.. that was too wonderful for words. Really felt like I was there in both there thoughts with them. So much sadness and regret in Andrea and so much conflicting emotions in Rick. Wonderful darling, totally wonderful!!♥♥♥

Date: 2010-12-04 10:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
:D :D :D :D Thank you so much babe! I'm so glad you liked it! I really think that these two could be such an amazing couple together.

I'm so happy that you like this!! *bounces*
♥♥♥

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Date: 2010-12-04 10:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] twirlycurls.livejournal.com
I like this very much!
And I think you should write more. :)

Date: 2010-12-04 10:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
Thank you so much! I'm so glad you like it! :D

Date: 2010-12-04 11:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] libra-dragon.livejournal.com
Very nice
I never had thought of those two together. It really works the way you wrote it.

Date: 2010-12-04 11:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
Thank you so much babe!
I gave it some passing thought in episode 2 but then, in talking with some people, it came right back. I think they'd be awesome together!

Date: 2010-12-04 11:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kaitlia777.livejournal.com
This was excellent! These two just need a moment of peace and quiet after all the horrible things that have happened in the world around them. I count Lori as one of those horrible things.

*Hugs and cookies*

ETA: You're watching Jericho on DVD!! LOL, My DVD's are still sitting on the TV stand from watching some the other day!
Edited Date: 2010-12-04 11:07 pm (UTC)

Date: 2010-12-04 11:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
I agree! They need some peace and quiet and I like to think that the two of them could comfort each other. :o)

*hugs and cookies back* Thank you for the inspiration!!

Yes!! I just started Jericho a few weeks ago and I am loving it! I started it because I love Richard Speight Jr and he plays Bill in Jericho. All this post-apocalyptic stuff is starting to mess with me though!

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Date: 2010-12-04 11:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] agirlnamedluna.livejournal.com
I gave Rick/Andrea a passing thought but I must be one of the only people who hopes for Rick/Lori lol ... just because I sort of understand her. But yeah, Rick/Andrea is tempting too.

Oooh and Jericho on DVD. Jericho is my absolute favorite but The Walking Dead is so close up there it's not even funny.

Date: 2010-12-05 12:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
I just love Rick so much that I can't stand Lori for what she did. I have a feeling that her and Shane were going on long before Rick was ever hurt. I admit that all we see is what we've seen and maybe she had a reason for it. I don't really wish her ill, I just wish she'd go shack up with Shane and leave Rick alone. Shane's obviously crazy about her!

I just started Jericho not too long ago and I am loving it!! I start it for Richard Speight Jr but I'm so hooked on the story! The characters are amazing!

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Date: 2010-12-05 12:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] murphstheman.livejournal.com
ah that was wonderful doll!!! I love how you did this:D definately agree that lori and shane just need to disappear so rick and andrea can get together;p nope haven't seen anyone able to settle daryl down yet either...she's gotta be out there somewhere:D....oh virgil might have an idea or two on who she might be;p I feel a snippet coming on!!!!

Date: 2010-12-05 04:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
Thank you so much babe!! I'm so glad you liked it! :D I agree, I would so love to see Rick and Andrea together!

There has to be someone for Daryl to settle down with but I just can't figure who. O_o

Ah, awesome! I love it when you feel a snippet coming on! :D

Date: 2010-12-05 12:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lovesswingdance.livejournal.com
That was so great! I honestly got teary eyed reading it, it's so sweet!! ♥ I love it, looovve it! *reads again* :D

Date: 2010-12-05 04:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
Awww yay!!! Thank you so much! I'm so glad you liked it! ♥ ♥ ♥

Date: 2010-12-05 01:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] atxstnic.livejournal.com
Beautiful!

If it's any consolation...SPOILER ALERT!
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*distracting Daryl comment*
I can so see Daryl saying that.
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Lori dies in the comic book.

Date: 2010-12-05 04:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
Thank you so much babe!!

I read that the other day! I got ahold of a link to some sort of Wiki and it said that she dies as well as Shane.

Date: 2010-12-05 01:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fadeintohim.livejournal.com
As I told you earlier this afternoon, and has been confirmed in the comments thus far....you have a huge hit on your hands. :D

I enjoyed this the first time and I enjoyed it just as much the second time around. You've done a fabulous job, hon and I felt honored you let me do what little I did.

I really really can't wait to see with what you come up with next, like I said in the email earlier, you've left it open for so many possibilities and that just makes my inner fangril squeee in delight.

I'm so so proud of you!!!!

*snow angel huggles and fluffy bunny kisses*

Date: 2010-12-05 04:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
Thank you so much babe! I just can't tell you how much I appreciate you betaing this for me.

Hee, I know what you mean! I've read it probably 100 times and I still just love it so much!

Right now, I have no idea where to go with it. Maybe inspiration will strike me soon :o)

Thank you!! :D

*gives you snow angel kisses and twirls you around the floor*

Date: 2010-12-06 06:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] twattyseahag.livejournal.com
Omg I love you for this!!! I'm shipping them so hard core and I'm even writing a fix, too! Did you join the Rick/Andrea community?

Date: 2010-12-06 07:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
Thank you so much! I'm so glad you liked it! ♥ I just recently got on board this ship but it already feels right, ya know? No! I didn't even know there was one! *runs off to look*

ETA: Joined! Would it be ok if I posted this over there?
Edited Date: 2010-12-06 07:03 pm (UTC)

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Date: 2010-12-06 08:49 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] shallowz
Oh my... I could see this happening. And while I don't want to see Rick messing around with another woman since he's married and all and it would kinda mess with my image of him, I sure could see this. I wouldn't be opposed to seeing this.:)

Date: 2010-12-06 08:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
I know right? It makes no sense that I give Lori and Shane all manner of grief for cheating on Rick and here I am writing him wanting to do the same thing with Andrea? No sense whatsoever. I think what I really want is for Lori and Shane to go off and be happy together or go die whichever suits them and for Rick and Andrea to get together. I think they'd be kinda good for each other.

Date: 2010-12-06 10:58 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] liliaeth
Not really my ship, I much prefer Dale/Andrea to be completely honest, but I love the way you wrote it.

Date: 2010-12-07 12:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
Thank you! This is a new ship for me but I'm really feeling it right now. I look at Andrea/Dale as more of a father-figure/daughter relationship but I've read that several people ship Andrea/Dale now.

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Date: 2010-12-06 11:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] floatxxaway.livejournal.com
This was wonderful! :D

Date: 2010-12-07 12:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
Thank you so much!! ♥

Date: 2010-12-07 12:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ohioala19.livejournal.com
i loved this, i really adored andrea and rick from back in the moment in the department store when she asked about taking the necklace, anyway as much as love them i can't think of rick as a cheater so just seeing them like this without actually crossing a line was so perfect and way better for a slow maybe future build

anyway it was wonderful and i loved it

Date: 2010-12-07 12:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
Thank you so much!! <3 I'm so glad you liked it!

Yeah, I don't like to think of him as a cheater either but I think that in the situation they're in, decisions and feelings aren't always black and white. Which is weird because I keep giving Lori and Shane grief for betraying Shane like they did. :S My mind works in strange ways, I think!

Date: 2010-12-07 01:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] burningchaos.livejournal.com
I want this to be cannon so desperately.

Date: 2010-12-07 02:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
Oh God, me too!

Date: 2010-12-07 01:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lovesswingdance.livejournal.com
I love Dale and Andrea too and how much he cares about her, I think of them as just like really good friends
Rick wouldn't cheat on his wife, it's just that Rick&Andrea's noticeable chemistry was like oh my gosh and this fic is so beautiful and if Lori was just out of the picture entirely... but it would be hard starting a relationship in a Zombie filled earth anyways. Still it's fun to imagine though ♥

Date: 2010-12-07 02:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lovesswingdance.livejournal.com
Sorry, that feels like a weird rant now haha..

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Date: 2010-12-07 02:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] twirlycurls.livejournal.com
I came back over to see if you'd gotten more interesting comments and... WOW! This place has exploded! I hereby declare you TWD fandom's first BNF. :)

Date: 2010-12-07 02:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
All these comments are making me entirely too happy :D *bounces*

I haven't heard BNF before - what does it stand for?

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Date: 2010-12-07 04:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] layra-depp.livejournal.com
OMG! It's beautiful.

Date: 2010-12-07 04:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
Thank you so much!! ♥ I'm so glad you liked it!!

Date: 2011-06-14 03:47 am (UTC)
ext_34969: Chloe - SV (Zombieland)
From: [identity profile] flareonfury.livejournal.com
This was wonderful, definitely something that should have happened on the show.. I feel so bad for Andrea... but I'm glad we'll see her in another season ♥

Date: 2011-06-14 06:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com
Wow, thank you so much! ♥ I'm thinking of picking this one up, taking them to the next level. I've got one fic I need to write first for Bicycle Girl and then I can get started on it (I hope!) Thank you so much for reading and enjoying!

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